I have never been more happier in my life but I do fear that things may change and everything that I have worked for will go down the drain. Things like that seem to always happen to me, for one reason or another. It is all part of chemical make-up in my screwed up head. So far I have been very positive about things and how one mistake does not nor should not consititute a total diet meltdown on my part. But in the end it almost always results in my abandoning all diet efforts. I am working really hard to not allow that happen to me this time around. There is one question circulating on SparkPeople that I can’t seem to pinpoint an answer to and that is: What makes this time different? I really don’t know how to answer that question but I do feel like this time is different. Maybe all the efforts in the past were just practice for the real thing. Let’s hope so, for my sake and for the sake of those who are rooting for me. I think that maybe I am really ready for a change now. Since the birth of my niece and the changing of my parents health, it has made me much more aware of how fragile life is. I have always assumed that I would have plenty of time to correct my miscomings and mistakes but that is not aways possible. Now is the time for me to make changes that both my family and I can be proud of, not tomorrow or next week or even next year. Nothing is going to be of benefit for me to wait. The sooner I get up on my two feet and start believing that I deserve these changes, the better it will be for everyone in the end, especially for me.
No, I am not feeling down today. I was two days ago but today is simply my reflection on things as they stand now. I know I will have continued support from everyone around me so there should be no doubt in my mind that I will succeed this time. Having the right attitude is the key to anything that needs to be done successfully.
